I left home. I knew I had to be on my own. I knew have to take my own decisions. Be the healer and comforter...be motivated and be determined...be all by myself.
But, of course, you can't live life just like you planned. There are uninvited disasters..there are those cruel moments which were beyond your imagination..you never thought that life would be so harsh..
I too, have had them. I faced them. But..I wasn't strong the way I thought I would be..I was feeble..so fragile..I did not know what to do..
Finding that friend, however, drastically changed my life. The moment she entered my life..she almost took over the authority..like she owns me..
She'd be awake for me..she'd put to me sleep too.. she'd be the one who'd instilled my mind with love.. she'd be the one who'd scold me..keep me away from all the unforseen errs too..she'd guard my happiness like it was hers... she'd weep over my grief like she owned them too.
I am in state right now, where I find myself so connected with her..and wish to be her driver for life.
She's my own..my best friend.
Wednesday, 27 September 2017
Rising from that Fall
Saturday, 23 September 2017
Thursday, 21 September 2017
My Superheroine- Ms. Silvi
It's either dry or pouring like never before. Rains were trending in all social media but I guess my boss has always been this no social media guy.. pretending or purposefully..which meant I had no option but to wait and finish my assignment.
I was walking back home late now..the streets deserted..the rain god's generously offering me a free water adventure sport.
It was adjustable until then but suddenly the thundering struck. I was naive..I trembled to hell..a soft whisper into my ears left me perturbed and petrified. I was so panicked..I didn't want to turn and look who it was.
The voice stood right in front of me..and sweetly said, "Don't worry...I'm Ms. Silvi...I'm the silver lining which your mind couldn't captivate amidst those haunting clouds. Ignite your mind..you need not fear..keep walking...I'm here..."
Tuesday, 19 September 2017
Monday, 18 September 2017
Friday, 15 September 2017
Thursday, 14 September 2017
Monday, 11 September 2017
Second chance
I wanted to believe in love again, for the second time. However, I wanted to take some time before I accepted his proposal. I told him that I would meet him next evening at the same place, same time.
I boarded the bus, whilst my mind wobbling..not knowing what is the right thing to be done.
I then thought to drop in to my ashram where I used to go as a child..I loved the sisters there..They were full of affection for me! As I entered the ashram, the sister, oblivion of my state of mind enquired, "Aaranya, do you remember your childhood promise to me?"
In a flashlight speed, old memories spilled out of my mind where I had promised the sisters to take up the responsibility of the ashram, for I learnt the joy of being compassionate from there! I had larger vision always; never restricted to my own happiness!
I got my answers! Now I knew what I wanted. I loved him enough, to the extent of letting him go..not wanting him to stop only for my own dreams. I knew I would always have his love in my heart which would keep my life going...!
My Angel.. the Firefly of my life
When I left alone..I had no clue where these paths would take.. I kept walking in the dark..like the darkness around was capturing my mind...my body..and I in return..kept losing this battle..I didn't give a fight back..I was so lost..I was happy being defeated..I thought I had none for whom I should live..I had no reasons..not one, not any...I had nothing of my own. As I strolled these roads of anonymity.. I saw one illuminated corner..I thought it was the Firefly of my life..I thought it would show the way out..I thought it was the answers to all my wait! As I approached the Firefly, I learnt it there..there was an angel waiting for me..the one who beheld some magic and love..I smiled and pondered if it would see me though..Much to my surprise the angel stood up there..she looked at me with mirth and glee..she did not wait for me to ask.. she held me strong and she soared too high..I had no fears ..no fears indeed.. I knew I was safe with her for sure.. I knew she'd guard and protect me through..I knew she loves me more than I do.. it took me a while to get to know..this angel was my friend..my soul..now,i know..Im so blessed..Im so grateful..for I know she's so pure..she's so true.
